i feel like i have wasted the day away because i simply cannot stay awake

what a terrible night to have a curse. the curse of mother natures monthly visit. truly i cannot wait until i am allowed to rip this horrible organ out of my body for good.

but i am stuck in a tough place now, my work has shifted once again and has left most of us high and dry and it is not the best time for this to happen.

fingers crossed that the pay period is still the same, we will see once monday actually rolls around for the day time business dwellers.

also. my internet has decided to take a nose dive in quality that even the swapping of a modem has only barely fixed. it angers me that i do not have access to the undercarriage to fix it myself but alas.

not much of interest has happened beyond that other than feeling like i'm stuck in a loop of the same day over and over again as my sleep schedule gets worse and worse

i'm trying to make what little bit of my medication i have left last until i can save up for a doctor visit again and refill my prescription. but it's wearing down on my psyche so heavily.

i already can't keep track of the hours and days, not being able to sleep well is only making it worse. and this sore in the back of my throat making it hard to eat refuses to get any better

stress is pulling me apart like a string cheese. i hope i am at least delicious in my suffering sob sob :C