oh dear, i fear i've neglected this place a small bit, i wish i had happier news as to why, but unfortunately the long and short of it is: i've been so very blue.

managed to pick up a small 3d modeling commission and in the middle of it, boom, four days i simply cannot get out of bed. the brain fog, it has me in it's thorny grasp and refuses to break its cold grip on my mind and body.

although i have a very simple solution to that, a doctors appointment to get my medication refilled! but another pit in the road to success is that my work has sufficiently kicked me to the curb and i have been jobless for close to, oh, a month now i'd say. brain fog makes it hard to keep track of time as well, you see. a small silver lining, a place my roommate is working at has an opening, but i'll have to wait until july for it to actively recruit me as thats when the classes start, according to the little email i received.

another silver lining is that we're finally leaving this awful awful place behind and moving to another house, much nicer neighborhood and slightly cheaper rent as well, plus my roommates have worked with me that if i keep the house clean i can pay half rent until i actively get a job again. thankful for that, love living with my friends, i feel so very bad that i keep failing them over and over again but am beyond grateful they keep giving me a chance to make it right.

i really do have incredible friends, both close by and far away.

i'm so very thankful for that.

so i have to keep going, for them. all of them. ♡