-swatting the cobwebs off this place- ayo whats up you aren't getting rid of me that easily

so that last entry was. dire. but some good news and bad news:

bad - i'm about to have to move back in with my grandma. Again. it's 2017 all over again man. our cat just died too so that wounds still nice and fresh.

good - i'm back on my meds, sleeping normally, have a job lined up (PLEASE GOD LET IT WORK) that i have to pee in a cup for later today

hope they don't mind it being a lil bloody since the moon has stricken me with the curse once more. no i will not say it normally, i am nothing without my theatrics

but also i've been somewhat consistently doing art the past like. months. hard to tell when i havent been able to sleep well since august of last year

things are looking like. mildly upward. its not a straight incline but it's better than the fucking downward spiral i've been on since... august of last year;;;;

if things can just continue working out slightly okay. please i am on my knees begging i am not the strongest soldier i am a little jester and my bells hurt